dreams

so...for anyone who doesnt know. i left the company i was contracted by. i just wasnt feeling it. long story, but we split amicably. great great GREAT people. not for me. the more i work for some one else the more i realize how i need to be working for myself. period. i have no problem with working 50-60 hours a week. its been a norm throughout my life. im ready.

catch up!

sweet lord its been a loooong time since i blogged here!! well. life has been super busy. i have been setting up shop and officially opening the doors to my own business. online presence is the first step to getting "official" and wow. is it hard. i never realized how indecisive i am about the most mundane details of life. i wish they only offered black or white backgrounds. would make my life MUCH easier.

i had a birthday two days ago!! GO ME! (I type that like its some type of personal achievement. haha) no-- really. i have always loved my birthday. it never fails to be a fantastic and beautiful day. and this one was no exception. i went to see "step brothers" staring my favorite, will ferrell. i went to Hollywood Blvd. yeah...another one of my favorite places. HEY-- you can watch the movie, order dinner and they have a full bar. all at the same time. i love it!

today is filled with catching up though. i took yesterday off to lounge. mid-afternoon nap and all. so...here i go. onto 93259 things to accomplish. and yeah.. it IS 4pm already. great...

may 8, 2008

its 810pm and i am sitting in my final class for my MBA. my team did our presentation already so now we just have to sit through the other team's presentation. this is hard. i want to pack up and leave. but...poor other team all called off but for one member. poor gal is giving their entire presentation solo. that sucks. so...i cant just walk out on her. that would be rude.

the facilitator(oh yeah...once you get to the MBA program you no longer have teachers. you have 'facilitators'.)said "once you guys are done with your presentations i will cover week 6 work!" um...seriously?? you think i am going to sit here after this?? i showed up. i signed in. i did my part of the presentation. what exactly does he think he is going to say in the last hour that is going to change my life? if he is intent on changing my life, i have email. send it there and ill read it comfortably at home later.

i also am typing very quietly so it doesnt seem like im not listening. i am...sorta. im multitasking here!! im an MBA afterall!!

and now i shall search the net until she is done...

i am alive

i dont believe its been so long since my last post. i have been diligently studying. studying and studying. all my studying has brought me 3...count 'em...THREE days away from my Master's Degree. part of me doesnt believe it. its like when you work for something for so long, the end becomes blurrier as you move towards it. even though i know its three days away, i still cant imagine what its going to be like in 3 days. i guess it will finally hit me that im done. finished. its over. wow.

my crazy brain just thought "there's always a PhD"...jesus help me. sitting still has never been my forte.

back

well. im back. i had a business trip this past week. i left thursday at noon. driving. it was 5 hour drive, but i love road trips. im "good" at road trips. i brought my fully stocked i-pod and a few bottles of water. it was fun. i drove with my boss, who i get along with, so we had no problems there.

the weather...ugh...it sucked. when we got down to these little IL towns, it was crazy. it would pour for like 2 miles, then no rain at all, then pour for another 3 miles, then nothing. ?? wth??? it was strange.

the conference was good. i learned a lot. we basically met with tons of vendors. you get 15 minutes with each one and they either present you with new product, or you settle issues. if its an integral vendor, its good. you talk about how much money you've make for them, how much product they make for you, etc. you laugh. they give you samples. if its a vendor you dont sell, that's when its a little uncomfortable. you sit there small-talking..."Can you sell our product?" No. "Do you want to try selling our product?" No. [dead silence]...tick tick tick...it can be the longest 15 minutes of your life.

overall it was good though. one "good" vendor set us up with skybox tickets to the Cardinal's game on friday night. that was cool. we got the "gourmet nachos"...omg. chips, salsa, ground beef, cheese, jalapenos. fantastic. the stadium was very cool too. they renovated and repositioned the stadium to give you a fantastic view of the St Louis Arch and downtown St Louie. the scene here seems really cool too. we didnt have time to explore, but there were quite a few small bars with live music. if i had a little more time, id love to see what's up there for a weekend...hmmm... another road trip??? :)

sunday

ahh...i love sundays. the very word "sun...day"...a day to sit in the sun. enjoy the sun. walk in the sun. soooo very calming. its just a cool day.

friday i went out and ended up getting home at 530am on saturday morning. it was fun though. i went to this goth club i used to frequent when i was a youngster. omg-- it was like time stood still. same dark walls. same techno music. same goth kids jumping around and stomping on the dance floor. its definitely a club i could go to once every 3 months to have some fun at. any more than that? nah. im too old.

saturday was a 'work day' for me. i got some new stuff together and worked some old stuff. so...that leaves sunday.

today is my day to take doggie for a walk. get a good lunch. watch a movie (if i have the attention span AND dont find something else more important to do). get some fat-free frozen custard for dessert. mmmm....

that is all.

slipcovers...and other disasters

i am slipcover challenged. honestly. i cant put on a slipcover to save my life. no-- im not talking about the big ones you just drape over a couch. i mean the fitted ones that you can take off for easy cleaning. i desperately spot-treat until i cant push it any further. i buy new stain-lifters and try and try and desperately try. sooner or later, the time comes when i have to remove the slipcover and throw it in the wash. when i do...i get a good nights rest. i have a nice drink before tackling it. and this is my saturday:

i woke up early and took the slipcover of hell off. threw it in the wash. then. i ventured off to switch out the rental car i have had for the past week. i made breakfast. i made calls. i cleaned. i broke my vacuum cleaner. i fixed my vacuum cleaner. threw the slipcover into the dryer. i took the dog out. i had a long lunch. had a drink. "here we go" i thought as i went to my dryer. i pulled out what seemed like a mile of black "stain resistant" (yeah ok) cloth, sewed into edward-scissorhands like pieces. i laid it out on the floor and was determined to get it on the couch. ok. yeah. so i turned it around the other way. and again. hmmm. ok. so maybe if i throw it on the couch it will make more sense. so i did. nothing.

here's the deal with me. i can work an excel spreadsheet like there's no tomorrow. i can write a 30-page research paper practically in my sleep. i can come up with innovative ideas to no end. but slipcovers? we just dont see eye to eye.

my friend is on her way over now to put it on for me. im having another drink.